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Tuesday, October 9, 2007

this is my 7,397th day sa mundo! Thank GOD STOIC ako..

7,397 days.. 500 of which, tinulog ko lang... hmmm... napakaraming araw, napakaraming pagkakataon... 7, 397 days.. hmm... may nagawa na ba akong mabuti sa kapwa ko?

siyempre ang isasagot ko diyan.. pero ang tanong.. may mabuti na ba akong nagawa sa sarili ko...

weird ko nanaman.. ito nanaman ako.. bagong gising.. wala sa sarili.. wala sa pagkatao.. pero sa mga ganitong panahon lang ako nagiging totoo sa sarili ko..

masaya naman ako sa buhay ko.. sobra.. maraming challenges, maraming conflicts at dahil sa mga to, nagiging kumpleto ang buhay ko..

haaayy.. isa nga lang akong dreamer.. i dream so high kaso wala pa sa 1/10 ng mga dreams ko ang natutupad.. kaya hindi lang 500 days ang tinulog ko.. 7,397 days na talaga ang tinulog ko lang sa mga dreams kong samu'tsaring hindi ko alam kung magkakatotoo.. ang wird noh..

STOICISM--joint forces ng "bahala na" at ng "wala akong paki-alam" sabi nga ng kaibigan kong si jade, "sa wakas nagkaroon na ng isang eksaktong term ang ginagawa ko".. STOICISM.. haaay.. buti na nga lang STOIC ako.. hindi masaya, hindi rin malungkot..

STOIC ako sa maraming bagay.. academic/org/xtra-curricular pressures, love, anger, kalungkutan.. dahil nga according sa teachings nito, "the only thing that exists is the individual and the universe is just a fiction of the mind" (wala na akong paki sa spelling. STOIC nga ako eh).

salamat kay sir Montana.. natutunan ko kung pano mamanhid sa kamunduhan ng mundo.. mamanhind sa mga kasamaan at kapangitan nito, at mabuhay ng malaya at mabuhay ng mapayapa..

siyet... buddhist na rin ata ako.. nyaha! oi. ikaw.. friends ba tayo? grabe.. hindi na talaga kita magets. sabi ng buddy mo your up to something.. dahil hindi raw logical na magsabi ka ng masasakit na bagay at bigla mo nalang itong kakalimutan.. ang weird. galit pa rin ako sa iyo.. buti na nga lang STOIC ako at may resistance pa ako sa irita sa iyo. wala eh. binasura ko nang lahat ng pinagsamahan natin. wala nang natira kahit katiting... wala na kongmaalalang magandang memories na kasama ka. pekpek ka.. kung alam mo lang... ni di mo pa nga ginagawa ang (1) burahin yung mga mapanira at masasakit mong blog entries na wala namang katotohanan, (2) ang palitan ang friends nating relationship sa multiply na para lang "hindi masaktan yung mga nagfifeeling close sa akin" at (3) di mo ko close sa iyong cellphone life.. hindi ka rin kasama sa akin kaya... who cares! mamamatay ka rin at alam mo yan...

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